an anti love poem
a good relationship is just a real friendship
you have to be friends with someone to be in a good relationship
like actual friends
like you check in with each other and genuinely care about them
not friends for a week,
not 'technically we started texting a month ago,'
even if you confessed,
even if you know it won't work out,
you still keep in touch.
maybe you do feel something after the first conversation. but that's not a long burning candle. you discover something is burning for a long time when it truly does burn for that long.
it's when you wonder, wow this person is still here. despite all of my flaws, they are here. it's in the terror of facing the worst stages, that they are there with you.
if i had to elucidate the appeal of extreme closeness, i’d probably describe it as thus: i find it both thrilling and exhausting to be in my own mind, and sometimes i want to share the burden of it. i want you to know everything, to share the inexhaustible accumulation of experience with me. — ava bookbear, closeness
what i’ve been up to
i’ve decided to move back to cmu early, and will be back on saturday morning (let’s hang out if you’re around)!
met up with some friends in LA that i’ve been meaning to meet up with finally and it was nice going on long walks together :D
been putting together a pinterest board of how i want my room to look like with plants and am so excited
kind of excited to go back to a normal paced life and settle down for at least a bit
really want to go to thailand for some time this fall, lmk if you’d be down